I've been evolving for years. Questioning everything.  Deliberating about stuff I used to blindly believe.  So today, "the most sacred holiday for Christians" (I heard that on tv today), I ask myself "why?"  Cuz I know that Christian holidays evolved from pagan sacred/holy days... So if anyone knows, I'd love to hear!  Plus I'll do research on my own, which is how I have come to have the knowledge & wysdom I do today...

I think that ppl can use the established holidays in ways to enlighten themselves, whether it's according to some religious doctrine, or to some very personal belief.  For me, I'm choosing to use Easter to celebrate the rebirth of Spring (similar to May Day).  With that thought in mind, I reflect on the comforting and reliable cycles of the Seasons, which so strongly contrast with the unsettling and unreliable aspects of our world - macro & micro levels.  Ppl have royally fucked up this wonderful world we live in & on.  And just when I think there's no good ppl left, I "miraculously" meet one -- M. you know who you are!  Ironic, isnt it?  But that's the way Life is & always will be: there's ups, downs, and mostly boring flatness; & there's moments/flashes of joy & happiness; & Belief does bring you through the very bad times.  Caveat:  Belief needs to be Strong, Healthy & True.  Otherwise you reap calamity upon yourself.

WOW:  Be Strong, Be Healthy, Be True.... BE-LIEVE!!

Love & Light,

Namaste', Enna

still haven't heard back from where I interviewed over 2 wks ago -- what happened to "customer service"?  I wouldn't dream of interviewing someone, then letting this much time go by... perhaps I really don't want to work there if this is a reflection of how they work.  I'm on vacation this week so I'll call Monday to see what's up with them...

this is going to be a "working" vacation for me - I have to clean out my house where I used to live, & where the kids were renting, then put it up for sale.  I keep hoping for a miracle so I don't have to sell the house... this will be a cathartic process for me, though, so along with getting rid of junk I don't need I'll be spilling many tears... who knows? maybe I'll own the place again some day... there's something sacred & very special about that land...

WOW:  thank you for Life, Love & Laughter to keep me sane in this insane place we call the world... and thank you for fellow Xangans who find their way here & share their energy...

Love & Light...

Namaste', Enna

...writer's block sometimes effects me... thus I have't written in 2 wks... let's see, what's new:  had an awesome interview yesterday & am hoping they were impressed enough to invite me back for a 2nd interview; still hoping for a miracle so I don't have to sell my house; will be a gramma this October!! what fun!!

WOW:  Appreciate the stillness - it doesn't always have to be filled...

Namaste', Enna

I'm bored... is that just another word for depressed? or is it this fucking weather? cloudy, mushy dirty snow on the ground, blahness abounds... nothing seems exciting... "everything's chasing after wind"... I disgust myself w/ my whining... so I will drink wine (self-medicating, I know), cruise the net & find things to buy that I don't need... and watch my Gwynafur-cat chase the mouse on the laptop screen... (one second of fleeting happiness? cheerfulness? non-boredom @ least)... ttfn - will post when I feel better...

...got that from MyExcite page Quote of the Day - quite appropriate for yours truly (as usual)... seems this Life is meant to be mostly mundane, with bouts of "hard things" and a few moments of joy.  hmmm.... I prefer the fantasy versions - and so do a whole lot of other ppl, given the $ spent on entertainment, sports, TV-especially reality shows(!)... shit, I could do my own reality show - probly we all could -- speaking of which, rent/buy the movie "American Dreamz" - seriously.  It's a wonderful satire loosely based on American Idol, with bits of current politics thrown in... can't recall the director or producer, but this person nailed it - what a sad/ridiculous/funny poke at "us Americans"...

...I'm hoping and praying for a new job - I've got a lead that looks excellent, so please send your energy/thoughts/prayers my way!  I am being shown that the time is ripe for change in my career, and I am trying not to exlusvely focus on this lead (however I'm 99% there) but I don't want to set myself up for failure/disappointment either... I need to accept with grace and dignity whatever comes my way, and deal with it the best I can...

WOW:  (remember? WyrdsOfWysdom)... I liked that last thought of mine so much, I'm putting it here as this post's WOW:  Accept with grace and dignity whatever comes your way, and deal with it the best you can.

Love, Light and Strength to you my fellow travelers and "hard things" dealers...

Enna

sooo... how is everyone?  probly sick of Winter, ready for Spring, itching to get out & do more stuff than you can do in the Winter (assuming that you live somewhere where it's snowy &/or cold).  Unless you're like my husband who LOVES the snow - he says it's the "Fin" in him... relatives in Minnesota, ancestors are Laplanders, etc... It's beautiful, and as long as I can drive I'm fine, but the older I get the more uncomfortably cold I get... oh well, it's a great "hibernating" time -- and used productively (not that I always do!) it can be a time of reflection, introspection and nesting.

Harry Potter's last/7th book can be pre-ordered now!  I always buy it before we go on our July vacation, then usually sit up all night reading... can't believe it's the last one... and of course I'm getting all the movies too...

WOW:  May your day be blessed with love and rest, May sun shine in your soul... May flowers bloom beneath your feet, and troubles downhill roll...  OK, that was "off the cuff" so to speak... A bit corny, but it expresses a lot!

Love and Light along your path...

Namaste', Enna

so... what's the key to happiness?  I seem to be sad, apathetic and/or bored a lot.  Everything seems like a big "so what"... I've been sitting here trying to think of what would bring joy to me, and I'm struggling!  If I could not ever have to work again, & be financially set, I'd feel relief, but not really happiness; if we could build the house of our dreams on my property & fix up the existing house & do the landscaping how I've wanted, that would be great, but I'm not jumping up & down for joy; if I get the job of my dreams, I'd be excited to be doing that, but is that the same as happiness?  Is it something elusive?  Maybe I've got a fairytale idea of what it's supposed to be... What's happiness to you?

WOW:  May you be filled with happiness, however you define it!

Love, Light and Happiness to you my readers...

Namaste', Enna

A busy stressful past week!  I've beem doing a "financial tango" which gave me several nights of not enough sleep; however I've got a (semi) plan, and will be finalizing details, so I've been able to sleep again.  Not much else going on; Life continues it's patterns of Michigan weird weather (we went from high of 44 Friday to winter storm warning last night & school closings today), football frenzy (several high-emotion Bears get-togethers @ our house), and work... One major difference is no kids in the house this year which I really, really miss!  I love it when they're all here, just doing their thing, not necessarily communicating with me, but it feels more like a home when they're all here... RB & I have been watching Sopranos episodes @ night (RB has them all burned to disc), so that's been great - it's addicting actually!  Makes my life seem very mundane... always had this romantic vision of being part of a "family" like that - probly cuz mine is not close @ all... So much for rambling, need cafeeine & shower...

WOW:  Be kind to one another -- you do not know what another goes through...

May Love, Light, Strength, Power, & Wysdom guide you today and always.

Namaste', Enna

What would you do if a friend of yours posted something, then found out later it was being used in a gossipy way?  I'm pissed off, disappointed, disgusted with the way some ppl behave.  Blogs are not meant to be used for "media" purposes.  Shame on you ppl who do that... you know who you are.

WOW:  Paraphrase on part of the Desiderata:  "...speak your truth quietly and clearly..." - and it will still be used for unethical purposes.  Be careful.

Love and Light to those who travel here:  and remember the laws of karma...

Namaste', Enna

I seem to have lost the "merry" in Christmas - not to say I'm being a Scrooge or Grinch, it just doesn't feel like a holiday to me.  The tree is up, the stockings got filled today, all the decs are as done as they're going to be... and it just feels like another Saturday to me.  Oh well.  I'm not going to worry about this.  It is what it is.  I am just grateful to be off work 'til Weds.

Merry Christmas to all of you!  "...and to all a good night..."

WOW:  May the spirits of Christmas bless you, console you, and bring you peace. 

Love and Light to you, my friends and visitors...

Namaste', Enna