October 21, 2006

  • Welcome... I'm frustrated because:  1) I need a new car, we went looking & discovered there's hardly anything out there in our price range w/ low mileage, or that doesn't need repair of some type; so RB says my car needs to make it 'til March when he'll have more liquid cash, then we can look for a better car w/ lower mileage (sigh); 2) I have realized @ work that I really want to work w/ a particular program there, but I don't have the degree - & if I want to work with the State Office, I need a degree; 3) so I finally am really "pumped" to go back to school & finish my degree, but it's so damn expensive!  it'll cost $15 to $20 K (excluding books) to finish my BA/BS.  So I went searching for scholarships & became frustrated b/c I don't fit enough of the distinct categories.  If I was an Eskimo, enrolled FT in a 4-year school, and willing to devote 10 weeks to an Internship, I could get upwards of $50,000 (that's several scholarships); 4) I can't get what I want when I want - yes this sounds childish, but all of us still have our ID, ya know!


    So... I'm also feeling overwhelmed cuz I have a State report due by 10/31; there's 10 investigative-type reports I really should have done by 10/31; there's only 40 work hours a week; I'm not always manically-fast each workday; I'll have to work OT next week to get all this done; I'm "itching" to find my sewing-machine (somewhere in the shed @ my other house) & make pillows from this gorgeous upholstery fabric I found, & re-upholster my antique piano bench (@ my other house), and I could easily spend all day over there (my other house), but RB needs quality time w/ me, so I don't want to bring up the fact that I'd rather be @ my other house today than w/ him (b/c we've had horrible fights in the distant past about his perceiption of not enough time w/me)...


    So... I have vented, I feel somewhat better for getting it out, I'll see how the weekend unfolds.


    WOW:  Be true to yourself -- without harming others.


     


    May Love and Light surround you and bless you...


    Namaste', Enna

Comments (2)

  • No, you can't always get what you want
    You can't always get what you want
    You can't always get what you want
    And if you try sometime you find
    You get what you need
    ~ Rolling Stones

  • Good luck with everything. Take care of yourself.

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